Friday, 1 June 2018

Redemption or Repentance

Savyasachi is rest less . Its been ten weeks since his wife Bhawna has been discharged from  the hospital after her cholecystectomy.
Savyasachi is anxious. Bhawna is her normal self and the house is in order just the way it normally is.
Savyasachi is upset . Bhawna doesn't look upset . She didn't threaten , she didn't lose her temper , she didn't  even cry .
Savyasachi is thinking hard -
Why ? Is she considering to move out? After all Bhawna is emotionally strong , financially independent , successful lawyer and a loving mother.
Why ? Has she 'forgiven' him ? It was nothing but a moment of weakness first in ten years of their marriage. It was Rosie the nurse who was all over him. And when Bhawana saw them together in the hospital janitor room they were just holding hands .
Why ? Does Bhawna too have secrets ? Did she ever love him ?
Why ? Is she planning to take custody of 7 year old Ishaan?
Is Ishaan their son?
Why ? Why ? Why ? Bhawana's normal behaviour is killing Savyasachi. He is appalled , he is disgruntled , he is remorseful .
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Bhawna is at peace . She is feeling calmer than she ever did in these ten years . Her husband is an average  man with all flaws and faults - she thus realised  . She has been in awe of him  , fulfilling his every wish , she has been so full of self pity , feeling she got more than she deserved. She didn't idolise him but she was cautious of her average looks . She didn't worship him but bend backwards to keep him with her.
And Now She doesn't have to do that anymore .

Friday, 5 January 2018

Sometimes Silly Sometimes Sweet Short Stories #006

                                                 RESPECT

''Is this your way of showing gratitude towards your family which let you live ?" said her grand mother.
"I spent on your bringing up, on your schooling , on your marriage ,how do you propose to repay that?" said her father.
"You managed to receive 5% share in the family property still you are not ashamed of embarrassing us?" said one of her brothers.
"Look at my son, he is so good looking what more does an average girl like you possibly ask for?" said her mother-in-law.
"What did I not give you in last ten years of marriage that you chose to walk out?" said her husband.

"Respect is what she wants,
"Respect is what she didn't ever get,
"Respect is what she will earn".

said her mother as they both walked out of the court.

Thursday, 14 December 2017

कुछ सवाल कुछ बातें

                और फिर एक दिन
बात है तब की,
जब उम्र थी पंद्रह और क्लास बत्तीस की ।
महीना याद नही ,
लेकिन गर्मी ज़बसदस्त थी ।
दाखला उसने लिया था उन्ही दिनों ,
पहली सीट पे बैठती थी।
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कम्बख्त मुश्किल सा नाम था ,
सही बोलने में हफ्ते निकल गए ।
नाम समझ मे क्या आया,
जाप जैसे होने लगा था।
बोलती थी धीमे धीमे और हँसती थी कम,
हुआ जो था अब तक सिर्फ यारोँ के साथ,
वैसी लगभग हालत मेरी भी हो चली थी।
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पतली , गोरी और सुनहरे लचेदार बाल।
लंबी वो थी ,
कद बढ़ाने में लेकिन ज़मात पूरी लगी थी।
चुप चाप कलम घिसती ,
देती जावाब सारे धड़ा धड़ ,
उफ्फ..... अँग्रेज़ी भी थी फ़र्राटेदार ।
उधर साल खत्म हुआ जा रहा था,
इधर मेरी उम्मीद फुर्रर होने लगे थी।
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फिर आया कयामत का दिन,
और मेरे सीने से दिल लुढक़ गया,
नब्ज़ बंद ,पसीना कभी ठंड कभी थरथरी सी ,
जैसे लगा हो लाइलाज़ रोग ,
हुआ यूं कि ,
Annual Day के dance में वो मेरी पार्टनर बनी थी ।
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Wednesday, 8 November 2017

आसान है क्या ?

शिकायत नहीं है मुझे ,
न ही दस्तूर बदलने की हिम्मत  ,
अस्थिर नही  हूँ , अधीर नहीं ,
अवसाद शायद ,
उदास शायद  ,
कहना  है बस ,
आसान नहीं ,
यूं अकेले रहना। 



दीवार  पर टंगी  बेटी की बनाई,
हैप्पी फैमिली  की पेन्टिंग, 
अलमारी में लटकी तुम्हारी साड़ियां ,
कुछ बंद  मैगी के पैकेट ,
कुछ खुले बिस्कुट ,
बेटे का क्रिकेट का बल्ला,
कह गया  था  रख लो ,
अगली छुट्टियों  में फिर जो खेलना है। 
तुम्हारी लगाई गेंदे की क्यारी सुनहरी हो चली ,
तुल्सी  भी हो गयी हरी पूरी ,
कमरा खाली ,दिल भरा भरा सा ,
आसान है क्या ,
यूं अकेले रहना ?



टेक्नोलॉजी के साधन  अनेक है ,
नहीं प्रतिस्थापित कुछ भी कर पाया ,
तुम्हारा साथ। 
चाहता हूँ लौट जाना घर,
बच्चों को देखूं पढ़ते बढ़ते , 
माँ का बनू  सहारा , दूँ तुम्हे तुम्हारे हिस्से का प्यार  ,
  किस से जा कर कहूँ  मन  का कौतूहल  ,
 संगी साथी, भाई बहन व्यस्त  है, 
उनके हैं अपने अपने कारोबार, परिवार। 
आसान नही है,
यूं अकेले रहना। 



"वह " कहते है किस्मत अच्छी है मेरी ,
जो देश भर में घूमता हूँ , 
पहली को सेलरी  क्रेडिट हो जाती है ,
सुविधाएं  हैं  । 
नादाँ है या फिर बेफिक्र ,
नहीं जानते  , 
मौत खेलने आती है दबे पैर रोज़ यहाँ। 
बर्फ , बारूद  , बारिश , पत्थर , अकेलापन ,
क्या  कुछ सहना पड़ता है ,
आसान नहीं है 
यूं  रहना  ।  









Tuesday, 26 September 2017

Sometimes Silly Sometimes Sweet Short Stories #005

What More ?

He looked in the bathroom mirror and grinned. A few months above 50 and not a strand of grey hair ,fine lines near the eyes had begun to show presence though . He was proud of his salon styled looks and his body built on supplements. He always opined that a man needed just two things to lead a good life - looks and bank balance and in his case an unsuspecting wife too.

“What more Ravindra Khosla”? he winked at  his reflection.

“Jess, jess , jessica” he called out her name agitatedly but she seemed fast asleep.

“Damn the new gen drinks” he said exasperatedly and began to pack his overnight duffel.

He didn't bother to look twice at the petite figure sleeping face down on the hotel bed her cheap flea market dress lying on the floor.

He checked himself out in the full length mirror one more time and marvelled at the ease with which he could still charm women half his age. 

“What more”? he chuckled.

“Check out on time and don’t add anything to the bill like last time” he said gingerly while sliding a wad of INR 2000 notes under her pillow.

Sitting in the cab he switched on his phone – countless missed calls and messages – 15 hours and he hadn't bothered to touch his phone – “ Jess sure knows how to keep me busy” he muttered shamelessly.

Then something caught his eye-

Tarun Khosla, 19 year son of a senior bureaucrat , Ravindra Khosla , undertakes blue whale challenge, dies.

2 hours later when his plane touched down in New Delhi, there was something more that was making headlines-

23 year old nursing student from Kalyan, found dead in a 5 star hotel room in Mumbai. Prima facie drug overdose.





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